CORONA, what have you done to this world, to me, to my friends?
You have destroyed my business, my livelihood how will you make amends?
I hear you whisper so contagiously as you spread your germ filled touch;
I have lost my life as I knew it, thanks so very fucking much!
This is only the beginning and already there’s so much anger and pain;
I hear you say as you snigger, “but we all have so much to gain!”
“To gain” I say back, “are you for bloody real?;
You have contaminated the world, have you considered how we all feel?”
So many jobs have been lost as I watch my lifesaving's slip away;
Each night I lay in bed thinking, tomorrow is another day!
What will this new day bring, more news of people dying?
Will this add to my fury as I spend another day in bed crying?
Being treated like a leper as I walked into a shop;
“Stand on the X mark please madam, don’t move past that chalked spot!”
“Are you serious?” I replied as I tried to reach the counter bench;
My mouth about to explode with expletives so I kept my jaw tightly clenched!
I paid the shop assistant as he loudly coughed in my direction;
I asked politely if he was OK which surely got his attention!
He said, “I’m fine, I am not sick. it is just a rotten cold”;
As he sprayed Glen 20 in the air as he processed the item that he’d sold.
I walked out shaking my head, feeling like this was all a dream;
But it was becoming a reality, it was more than it had seemed!
This shit is getting serious, there are people dying everywhere;
The media are out in force adding more momentum to the fear.
My mood was growing darker and there was nothing I could do;
I was angry, so bloody angry and then I saw YOU!
You dropped your cigarette butt right where you were standing;
I watched it fall to the floor, with its ember coloured landing.
Normally I would react, and ask nicely to please put it in the bin;
But, I knew that if I attempted I could perhaps commit a mortal sin!
I wanted to thump you, to show you how inconsiderate you had been;
Then my daughter said to me “Mum just pretend you hadn’t seen!”
And then the sun it starts to set and another day is ending;
And the world as we know it, all the messages it is sending.
“Perhaps some good will come of this” were the words my husband said;
As I looked at him with rage and wanted to punch him in the head!
“That’s not what I want to hear” as I poured a tonic and gin;
As he shook his head in disbelief with that annoying little grin.
“Where’s that Yogini woman that I know, why don’t you practice what you preach!”
I looked for something I could throw but there was nothing in my reach!
What is happening to this woman, the one that I so deeply know!
Where has she gone, I am worried, why is she feeling so bloody low!
Perhaps It’s because she’s feeling the greatest loss of all her life.
Does she forgets she is a mother, a friend, someone’s wife!
“It’s OK” I say to myself, let the feelings flood on through;
You are a caring soul, you know this, look at all that you do!
You are sincere, you are genuine, why pretend to be anything less;
It’s OK that you are suffering, it’s OK you feel a mess.”
I awaken yet again, to this nightmare that is real;
But I awaken slightly softer as I prepare my morning meal.
Something in me has shifted as I sip my steaming hot cup of tea;
And up jumps our dog 'Lily' as she sits upon my knee.
As I stare into her face and see her little tail a wagging;
I am ashamed of my behaviour and those wasted days of nagging.
I am alive, I am healthy, it has fallen into perspective;
The world is healing, it is resting, like it’s taking contraception!
It does need to stop, to refuel and to regrow;
I only wish lives were not lost in order for it to sow.
So I start this day anew, with a different look upon my face;
As I ask for God to help us all and this depleting Human Race.
But I also give thanks for the magic that this is bringing;
As I watch a handful of birds that are so beautifully singing.
This too, it shall pass, and we will all be ok;
So, my dear friends, enjoy this break, please don’t waste a single day!
Trishna Peacock
Shake Your Buddha Yoga and Retreats